Tuesday, December 24, 2019

Heather's Grave: January 31, 2020

Rose is at rest, but the haunting of the Ridgewood family continues in Heather's Grave: Book 2 of the Rose's Ghost series.

Maggie is relieved to have found peace in the Ridgewood family home, having solved the mystery of Rose Maplestone. But with the onset of new adventures as she and Jack prepare for their new addition comes more ominous change.

Max is forced to admit his anxiety stems from more than regret over his role in saving Alice Ridgewood from Rose’s ghost. His body is sick, too.

And the tragedies of the Maplestone family didn’t end with Rose, for after all, the baby she lost was a secret in life – her existence unrecorded and unacknowledged - except by those who’d witnessed it all.

And as her desperation to honor her child grows, Rose determines to help Maggie in the strangest of ways – raising questions around her intent. Does Rose mean to help, as she’s vowed, or do her methods force an ultimatum instead, wherein the life of Maggie’s child depends on the finding of hers?

Wednesday, December 18, 2019

Rose Needs Reviews!


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Tuesday, December 17, 2019

Excerpt - Constance and Enzo's Tea Time With Peyton



Chapter 8 – Progression


Peyton froze as the lock clicked.

There was a pause, then the door opened just enough for Constance to peer around it. Peyton unwittingly compared the effect to Enzo’s disembodied head from moments earlier.

Constance’s hand appeared around the door, then, and pointed to the spot where Peyton should have been waiting.

“Sorry!” Peyton cried as she raced toward the door.

“Good heavens!” Constance muttered, but said nothing more as she wound the ribbon around Peyton’s wrists.

Peyton watched the windows silently, her thoughts racing.

“Is he here?” Constance asked, and Peyton turned to scan the room

She found him with a start, the visage of his lower half sprawled on the bed. Peyton frowned and leaned to see past Constance and found his upper half, but this time, his head was missing.

“Well?” Constance demanded, hands fisted on her hips.

Enzo’s head materialized slowly; a purplish mass appearing first and then oozing into its proper shape. His arms went to this throat as his features became apparent.

Peyton fought the urge to cry out at the sight, and met Constance’s gaze. “M – mostly,” was the only answer she could manage.

Constance manufactured a prim expression and put her nose in the air. “Well, tell him it’s time for tea.”

Peyton hesitated.

“My word, Peyton! You’re slower than usual tonight!”

“I’m sorry. It’s just that – I don’t need to tell him; he can hear you.”

Constance averted her eyes as she pressed her lips together.

It wasn’t the first time Peyton had reminded her of the fact, but somehow it became more difficult each time, as unsure as she was of Constance’s disposition from moment to moment.

“Right. Then, shall we?” Constance was blushing; Peyton could see red blotches on her neck, as well. Her skin seemed as temperamental as her mood, flaring in tandem. A red flag.

Peyton nodded, muttering a hurried, “Of course,” before stepping lightly past the shorter woman and into the hallway.

Constance peered around the space once more before joining her, then started down the hall, nose in the air again.

Peyton frowned, but followed, taking in every detail as they went. Constance often forgot to remove her constraints, but she’d never forgotten the blindfold. She knew she should speak up – her reaction to the revelation would no doubt sting less than the discovery of it after Peyton had seen too much and held the knowledge back – but she found herself unable to dislodge the words from her throat.

There wasn’t much to see; the hallway was short and decorated only by large tapestries and a single painting of riders on horseback, hounds at their feet. But as they neared the stairs, Peyton’s eyes widened as her view did. Several paintings lined the descending wall. She recognized the one of the twins first, though their captured images looked back from younger faces than she was accustomed to, and another of Enzo, alone. He was dressed in riding gear, one foot on an overturned barrel and his opposite arm bent to hold a riding crop over his shoulder. His pose spoke pridefully, but Peyton saw sadness in his eyes.

As they continued down, the largest of the paintings caught her attention. It was a dignified-looking older man with Enzo’s eyes and a stern-looking woman with thin lips and tightly pulled-back hair. “Who’s that?” she mumbled aloud, then gasped, inwardly cursing herself for having gotten so distracted by her surroundings that she’d forgotten to keep quiet about it.

“What?” Constance turned as the reached the bottom, then uttered a high-pitched, “Oh!” as she pulled the thicker ribbon from her sash. “Why didn’t you tell me?” she growled in Peyton’s ear as she tightened the knot at the back.

Peyton grimaced at the pressure on her eyes and the way the knot pulled at her hair.
Constance tapped a flat hand on her cheek, urging her to speak. It wasn’t a slap, really, but it made her jump, nonetheless. “I’m sorry!”

“You say that so much!” Constance growled. “And rightly so; you’re such a fuck-up!”

Peyton recoiled at Constance’s rare use of profanity. Heavy footsteps retreated downward then and she pictured a smug look on her captor’s face. When she heard no more, she considered her options. She’d never navigated the stairs without Constance’s guidance, and the simultaneous restraint of her hands did Peyton no favours. “Constance?”

Silence answered her.

“I -” Peyton faltered, noting the odd sensation of tears trying to well in her eyes, which were so tightly compressed in their sockets she felt they may implode. “I don’t want to fall,” she finished, her words sounding pathetic to her own ears.

A warm hand gripped her elbow and Peyton exhaled in a rush, relief flooding her. “Thank you,” she muttered as she continued downward. She became aware it was Enzo helping her when she reached the landing and Constance took her opposite arm roughly.

“My brother likes to oppose me,” the woman fumed.

Peyton turned her head to see him, reminded of her blindfold after the fact. “Enzo?”

Constance tugged on her arm with a growl of irritation. “If I’d known the two of you would gang up on me, I’d never have brought you here!” Her fingers dug into Peyton’s upper arm as she accentuated her words with violent yanks.

“Oh!” Peyton cried as her shoulder sent out a bolt of pain.

“Shut up!” Constance spat, pulling Peyton down roughly so she could yell into her ear.
Peyton was quickly forgetting the rules of social etiquette she’d worked so hard to gain. She sucked in a breath and made an effort to concentrate on walking, using Constance’s lead regardless of the pain it caused.

“Bitch” Enzo’s voice came from her left, and Peyton fought the urge to turn toward it again. “She’s such a baby,” he added, childishly.

Peyton knew the irony would be funny later, but it felt too dangerous to laugh at, now.

The smells of tea and cakes filtered through the air as they stepped onto hardwood floors, and Peyton realized with a sense of dread she’d forgotten to put her shoes on. She bit the insides of her cheeks, throwing a prayer out to whomever could hear her. Please, don’t let her see.

She was shoved unceremoniously, her knees meeting something solid quite painfully. She didn’t cry out, though; she stayed still, hoping Constance would remove her blindfold so her eyes could return to their proper homes.

“Oh, did you hurt your knees?” Constance crooned from behind her.

Peyton bit her lip, wanting to be anywhere else. Wanting to be sleeping. Wanting to be gone.
The blindfold loosened, then was torn from her head. Peyton was aware of the stinging pain of some hair being torn out with it, but focused instead on the overwhelming relief of having the pressure removed from her eyes.

But what she saw tossed her in another direction, entirely.

Enzo was on the table, squatting over a tray of sandwiches, a huge smile beaming in Peyton’s direction.

Peyton struggled to remain calm as her wrists were freed from their restraints, but she couldn’t look away.

His pants and underwear were puddled around his ankles, but Peyton could see that nothing on the table had been disturbed.

He made a feather flutter, she reminded herself. There’s no way he can take a crap on the sandwiches.

Still, her appetite had waned considerably.

Peyton cleared her throat and looked at Constance. “Shall I serve your tea?”

Constance fumed. “I’d like an apology, first!”

Peyton worked to steady herself as Enzo whispered, “Should I do it?” then broke into a fit of laughter.

“I apologize about the blindfold. I didn’t realize until we were already walking, and then I saw the pictures and got distracted.”

Constance looked regretfully appeased, her eyes still flashing angrily.

“How old were you and Enzo? In that one with -”

Constance pointed a finger at Peyton’s face, the heat of her fingertip palpable between her eyes. “Don’t ask questions about things you shouldn’t have seen!”

Peyton lowered her gaze. “I’m sorry.”

Enzo, apparently bored, stood and pulled his pants up. “You’re no fun,” he muttered, then jumped off the table and disappeared in midair.

Constance marched to the head of the table and sat, her dress fluffing out at the sides. The woman was short, but she wasn’t slight.

“Serve,” she demanded.

Things were quiet for a while. Peyton served Constance; she’d deigned to let Peyton choose everything for her this time, and then made up a plate for Enzo, though he hadn’t reappeared.

Peyton served herself last, and had to hold herself back as her appetite returned with a vengeance. Chicken salad sandwiches with little slices of sweet pickles were her favorite of all the sandwiches served, save perhaps the cream cheese and swiss croissants with cucumber and tomato. She ate in grateful silence, watching Constance warily. But the woman’s eyes were clouded over.

Finally, she said, “He’s not here, is he?”

Peyton froze mid-chew, then shook her head as daintily as she could.

Constance sighed heavily, her eyes going to the windows and out into the darkening evening. “She doesn’t ever stay long, but I know her visits upset him.”

“Who?” Peyton asked before she could stop herself, her heart suddenly pounding hard.

Constance sent her a withering look. “For your information, our stepmother was here today. She – she stays in the city when father is away on business.” Constance said in a rush, her eyes going to her plate. “Oh, brownies!” she muttered, and Peyton’s eyes widened as Enzo’s laugher seemed to come from all sides of her.

She squinted toward Constance as the woman brought the chocolate confection to her mouth, desperately trying to remember whether she’d served her brownies or not. Relief rolled over her when Constance closed her eyes, saying, “Mmm!”

Enzo popped into his chair at the opposite end of the table. He was still laughing. “You actually thought I did it!” he pointed at Peyton.

“I didn’t realize your father remarried after your mother’s death,” Peyton said smoothly, proud of her lack of reaction to Enzo’s tricks as she looked back at Constance.

“It’s not your place to realize that,” Constance replied, but there was no force behind her words.

Peyton sipped her tea.

“The truth is, if father wasn’t so busy with work, they’d be divorced already,” Constance said, reaching for her tea.

“Pfft,” uttered Enzo, who’d crossed his legs as he lounged sloppily. “She’s always been so jealous of her.”

Peyton knew he was talking to her, but his eyes were on Constance.

“Why?” Peyton asked, then sucked in her breath, looking at Constance.

Constance frowned. “Because she’s hateful!” she said, replying to the question Peyton had meant for Enzo, in some twist of luck.

“Because she loved me best, just like mother,” Enzo whispered, and it tickled Peyton’s neck, for he was behind her, now.

And she was momentarily distracted from both of them, caught up in the feel of his breath on her skin. Remembering the warmth of his touch on the stairs. And finally, envisioning the fluttering feather from that afternoon.

He was progressing remarkably fast.

This could be bad.

Monday, December 16, 2019

Fly, Rose, Fly!

There comes a time when we have to let our babies go.

We do it in fits and starts with our children; teaching them one moment and holding them to us the next, until they take a leap - or a series of leaps - on their own, to find their own unique place in the world.

It's a classic gateway in parenting as well as growing up, both terrifying and exalting.

I think art is similar; the products of our creative selves.

My books are created within me - mind, heart, and soul. They develop and grow, taking time and energy and love - lots of love. Releasing them is bittersweet; there is pride but fear bites it back. There is hope, but doubt holds it down. There are goals, but time is an ever-present force, pulling at the horse who bounds ahead and pushing the one that limps behind.

In the weeks pre and post-launch, I was focused in all ways on the plight of my baby. Even as I edited Heather's Grave (Book 2), Rose lurked peripherally, always. I checked on her several times a day and rejoiced in her progress! And when she stumbled, I determined every time to support her when she fell, and to believe, unfailingly, that she would be OK.

Now that the signings are behind me and the day is marked by a newly-launched blog tour, I find myself settling back into myself, satisfied that we've made it through the storm.

And other projects call me.

So, in good faith and remaining at my post for Rose's Ghost, should she need anything at all, I loosen my grip on her and let her fly!

Here is where she is for the next two weeks:


Please follow the tour and enter for your chance to win a signed hard copy of Rose's Ghost or one of five copies of the e-version!


Tour Schedule:
Week One:
12/16/2019
Excerpt
12/17/2019
Excerpt
12/18/2019
Review
12/19/2019
Excerpt
12/20/2019
Review

Week Two:
12/23/2019
Excerpt
12/24/2019
Review
12/25/2019
Review
12/26/2019
Review
12/27/2019
wordsandruin
Review


And here is what's coming next:

Constance and Enzo's Tea Time With Peyton

I'm beyond excited to be going back to this one, which was started while I was writing the Rose's Ghost series, and then put aside when I realized I'd have to wait to release it until after the series was out!

Why, you ask? Because it features characters from the series! And Peyton from That Summer and Margot from Bird With a Broken Wing are there, too...I hope readers will enjoy seeing them grown up as much as I'm enjoying the trip the book is taking me on.

Watch for an excerpt in the next couple of days!

And, hey - if you see Rose in your travels, give her some support, OK? She's doing alright, but it's a tentative success. She (read: *I*) still really needs your support!

Tuesday, December 3, 2019

Rose's Ghost Updates

Rose is officially launched!

I've been overwhelmed with the support I've received, both pre and post-launch; THANK YOU to my dear readers! This has been a whirlwind of an experience!

What's up now:

- Sage's Blog Tours is hosting a Blog Tour all this week; check it out!
- The "Tea Tour" has two confirmed book signing dates: December 14 from 2 to 4 at the British Cafe in Aylmer, and December 15 from 2 to 4 at teastore in the Byward Market

And here's where you can get it:

Amazon Canada
Amazon US
All The Others!

Up Next:

I'm just getting started! Rose isn't finished yet; Heather's Grave (Book 2) is in final edit mode and is on track to launch in January!

And my dear friend Eleanor Eden published The Strength of Burden last month, and plans to launch the second in the series: The Depths of Sorrow, in time for Christmas. These are fun ones, guys.

Onward and Upward!







Sunday, October 20, 2019

Rose's Ghost Launch and Other New Stuff

Rose's Ghost is still on track for a November 29th launch!


In preparation, That Summer and Bird With a Broken Wing have each undergone a total overhaul and their new and improved versions are available almost everywhere!

Also check out the Paper Doll Publishing website, and watch for the Rose's Ghost blog tour details!

Finally, I've got two meet & greet/book signing events in the works; stay tuned for details via Facebook Events.

This is nuts, y'all. I'm so excited!



Saturday, September 28, 2019

Semi-Finalist? That's a win, in my book. Ha! My book. See what I did, there?


I enter my finished manuscripts into lots of contests while they await that beautiful day when they go out into the world. I've learned to carefully consider each opportunity (and its requirements) against each manuscript. Chrysalis is a frequent contestant, as it tends to fit the "literary" category, despite its cross-dressing male prostitute junkie protagonist. I gotta say, Trey is a solid favorite of mine...now. It took a while to get to know and love him. Funny; I wonder how he's doing, sometimes.
Anyway, Chrysalis ended up in the semi-finalist category for the Eludia Award with Hidden River Arts. 
OK, so, upon further inspection, I've found that there were like, sixty semi-finalists, but I'm still taking it as a more positive sort of rejection. Like, I sorta came in second. With lots of other semi-finalists who also deserved it. And after the finalists who didn't win.
...
And their email was nice. "Beautiful work," they said. Don't mind me; I'm just letting that sink in nice and deep.
It's a flotation device, thrown just as my arms were getting really tired of treading water. And dangit, I'll take what I can get.

Thank you for sending us "Chrysalis". It passed to the semi-finalist stage of our deliberations, but did not pass into the finalist stage. We include here a link to our announcement of the semi-finalists and finalists, so that you can see the naming of your work in the semi-finalist category.

Thanks again for your interest in our Eludia Award and for your kind patience . We sincerely wish you the best of luck with placing this beautiful work.

Tuesday, September 24, 2019

Keeping It Real

Let's get this straight from the beginning, folks: publishing your work is EFFING HARD, yo!

It's only been half a year since I've been in the game, and I feel like I've been through the wringer, scrubbed, wrung out, and hung up to dry. And then the laundry person forgot about me. For six months. 

And, for perspective: many authors never get picked up by an agent, let alone a publisher! Even the ones that do may have been working at it for years.

Yeah, yeah, I was warned. But it's like having kids: nothing and nobody can prepare you for the life-altering impact the change will bring. Transitioning from writer to published author has been a task of momentous highs and resolve-weakening lows...it's a roller coaster that never ends. I don't blame the droves of disenchanted for leaping off the ride as soon as it's back in the station; without stubborn determination and the ability to pick yourself off and dust yourself of A MILLION TIMES, this business is an epic challenge to stick with.

To be honest, I question my sanity at least once a day.

Would I have done it, if I'd known?

Yep.

Because the highs outweighs the lows.

Simple, right?

Let's look at the lowest of the lows for a sec, shall we? 

Predictably, it's rejection. Oh, my God, the rejection. You think you know rejection? Submit eight different books and two short stories to every single agent and publisher accepting queries or submissions. Submit them with a hopefulness that buoys you and carries you forward and a confidence made of the concrete knowledge that your work is good! Put everything you've got into your query letters and hold your breath when you press 'send', simultaneously putting a wish out to the universe. 

Let this be it! 

...and be rejected, over and over and over again. Not just by agents and publishers, no, but by people you GIVE your work to for free. By uninterested family members. And, in a crushing blow delivered by what you thought was your final option, should nothing else work, by publicists you try to HIRE.

To say it's a knock to the self-esteem is a vast understatement.

Now, let me tell you about the highs. 

The writing. Basically, if writing doesn't fulfill you, don't get into it thinking of fame and fortune. If you don't absolutely love the process of getting your stories out - weaving them with words creatively set and narration both intriguing and enticing, don't do it. Bottom line. And if the drive to finish the book doesn't compel you to the point of possession, consider whether it's worth it to start. There. I think I've said that in three different ways. 

Now let me say it once more: THE WRITING HAS TO GET YOU HIGH. 

Yep. It has to be your drive, your drug, your cancer, your cure and your salvation all rolled into one. And typing "The End" has to be as good as sex. Good sex. Like, with multiple orgasms. OK, almost as good as that. 

Making connections. That's another high, at least for me. There's nothing like realizing, through feedback on your work, that you're not alone. Even fictional stories make the author vulnerable; after all, you're displaying the contents of your mind for others to study, assess...ultimately, to critique. Every reader has the answer to a fundamental question at the end of your book: do I want more? Personally, I can deal with the fact that I can't please everyone. But if I didn't achieve at least some sort of connection with my readers, I wouldn't write. 

Then there's the fact that, even after you've failed for a while, you realize you've amassed a wealth of information to work with as you continue your efforts. I know, now, about the different types of publishing companies and their methods. I've learned hard lessons about taking shortcuts, and subsequently the value in investing more than your time and creative energy into your work. Unless you have access to a list of experts that any author would envy, you're going to have to pay for essentials like editing, proofreading, design, publicity, distribution...the list goes on. And, if you're still without a masthead in the end (ie: without a publisher), it's still going to be harder to sell your books, even if you've put in your blood, sweat, tears AND money to do so. Sounds like it should be up there in the negative stuff, right? But it's just a fact of the business, and the sooner you learn it, the better you can prepare for it and mitigate it.

I'm still floundering out here; don't get me wrong. But at least my skin has thickened up a bit. I don't pander to publishers; I ask them questions before I even submit, now. I know what I want and I've said no to those who couldn't meet me halfway. Would you believe me if I said I'm treated much better as a result? And I'm learning to put myself out there - make connections with people who've been in the business a while and benefit from them, even if it's just to further educate myself. Or to feel understood by someone who's been through it already.

I'm not giving up. Not yet. I still feel that promise of something, you know? I see the light at the end of the tunnel for "Rose's Ghost", which has been a long time coming for my first finished manuscript! And I'm almost finished my eighth full-length novel, "Stumble". It's such a sweet feeling to be building up a collection of little gems, each glittering more than the last, and keeping them safe, anticipating a growing group of supporters to appreciate them. 

See? In the end, it's still the writing that saves me.

Wednesday, August 14, 2019

Stumble Teaser

Good afternoon, dear readers. Today, I have for you an excerpt from Chapter 9 of the current project, entitled, Stumble". This one's a bit darker, folks.


The living room felt weird. He stopped just inside the doorway. “Solace?” he called, certain he wasn’t alone. But she didn’t answer him. Nobody did.
The room reeked of olives. He grimaced against the smell. And if it was that bad for him, he knew it would make Solace sick. He observed the dark stain on the couch, but was quickly distracted by a movement in the corner behind it.
He peered into it, but it was darkened as the sun faded from the day. His heart sped up. He stood there for what felt like a full minute, hoping his eyes would adjust. Trying to believe it was just shadow. Fighting the memories.
And then it moved again. Not spreading slowly as the light faded, no, but like a figure changing position. He gasped, his hand shooting out for the light switch even as his eyes remained glued to the darker shape within the shadow. His hand fumbled around, then found purchase, flicking it on, and froze again as Jake became acquainted with a new depth of terror.
The light found the corner and the shadow changed, but the shape – the deeper darkness – lingered. And he recognized it. His bladder threatened release as the shape changed, but rather than simply vanishing like the other shadows had, it seemed to cave in on itself, growing darker still as it shrunk, and then, *thwip!*, simply disappeared with an odd sucking sound.
He yelled as his knees gave out, the crutches throwing him forward in a mindless attempt at support, and he landed on his hands first, then his knees as the useless things fell. He stayed like that, breathing hard, the imploding black hole of a figure shrinking into nothing over and over in his mind’s eye.
He pressed his face into his hands and felt sweat and tears together. 
It’s getting worse, he acknowledged inwardly. It’s getting closer.

Tuesday, July 23, 2019

Now Starring: Rose's Ghost! Still / Again!

Hello dear readers,

I've just slapped "The End" on Dark Mirror and am funneling it off to my editor tomorrow. And with that, I'm looking forward to what's next.


The next book is queued up and ready to be downloaded. Entitled "Stumble," it's a darker ghost story that'll veer off into some explorations of the other unearthly creatures that can sink their teeth into us - but it's not all dark and twisted! The main character is a man whose past finally catches up to him when a horrific car crash stops him cold. The subsequent death of his wife only opens the door to a world he's refused to acknowledge.


Until now.


Eeeee! I can't wait to get this one down!



Sunday, June 16, 2019

"Chrysalis" and What's Up Next...

"Finding Trey" changed into "Chrysalis" before it was done, which was June 13th, and it fits, because the book turned out to be all about change, anyway.

I'm proud of it. I think it's my best yet, despite my earlier misgivings.

I was really down the next morning when it was time to write, but Trey's story was already finished. I figured I just missed him and the other characters. So, I edited it and over the next couple days, then sent out some query letters and entered it into some contests. The whole manuscript is in my father's hands, now; poor guy volunteered to edit it and I took him up on it without hesitation.

Nothing made me feel better, though.

Until I started thinking about Jesse. And so, two days after I finished Chrysalis, I started to write Dark Mirror.

I feel much better now.

Here's a quick breakdown I posted on the Rose's Ghost Facebook page:

Based in Wakefield, Quebec, and featuring Jesse, a resident musician at a popular restaurant over the Autumn months, Charlotte, long-estranged from Jesse, with a restraining order to make sure it stays that way, and Suki, the ghost of a mail-order bride, murdered by a man like Jesse in so many ways. For Jesse's own sanity (and Charlotte's fate), he'll need to figure out what makes himself and the murderer different.
What makes him better. 
What makes him unable to commit such an act against the woman he's convinced belongs with him.
But what can he do when the only person who can help him is a ghost?

This one's about reflection, dear readers.

xo

Monday, May 27, 2019

Teaser: Finding Trey


Chapter 1 – Pablo


“Trey.”

Trey awoke with a start. “We here?” he mumbled.

Pablo frowned and pulled the brim of his cap down on his forehead. It was a nervous habit, and Trey always made him nervous. It was strange – he’d seen a lot in his career as a cabbie, but nobody made him uncomfortable like Trey did. It wasn’t because he was a prostitute, or that he was often high or passed out by the time he got him to his destination – it was because when he wasn’t high, he was wonderful. He was special. But his choices brought him way down, lower than who he really was inside. He destroyed himself every night, and Pablo knew that if he carried on, his phoenix-like ability to rise up again the next day, even more magnificent than the day before, would one day fail him.

“Here, baby,” Trey slurred, waving a twenty over the divider.

“It’s only three ninety-five, Trey,” Pablo said firmly. “I’m not taking your money.

“But I have so many!” Trey fell back into the seat, his shiny red (and somewhat smudged) lipstick turning his smile into something less than sexy. “So many money!” he giggled as he swooned.

“You OK, Trey?”

He smiled on, now raising his fishnet-clad legs in a lascivious ‘V’ as he licked his lips, his eyes on Pablo’s in the rear-view mirror. His tiny denim shorts barely restrained parts of him that were certainly not female, though his clothing would seem to indicate otherwise.

“You’re gonna ruin my roof with those heels, Trey,” Pablo said calmly. He turned around, looked him in the eye. “Why do you do this?”

“Just wondering if you’ve changed your mind,” Trey laughed and lowered his legs, then swooped forward to kiss Pablo on the forehead. He smelled of sweat, but not his own.

“I’ve told you before, Trey; I’m not gay.”

“And I’ve told you before – “ Trey poked him gently on the tip of his nose, “ – that I’m not, either.

Pablo shook his head in confusion, then turned back to the steering wheel. “It don’t make no sense to me,” he said. He’d said it before. “But you do you, T.”

Trey laughed again, his smile revealing more smudging of the red lipstick, but on his teeth, this time.
“I hope you’re going home, ‘cuz it’d be a sorry soul who’d pick you up right now,” Pablo said, too tired to be gentle.

“Home,” Trey scoffed, then leaned forward again. “Besides, you’d be surprised what people want when they’re desperate.”

“I can only imagine,” Pablo said. “Now get out, bitch. I’m tired from waiting up for you.”

Trey’s laughter burst out of him, making Pablo smile reluctantly.

“Go!” he motioned to the door.

Trey threw his lean, but muscular arms around his neck. “Thank you, Pablo. You’re my only friend in the world, do you know that?”

“No, I don’t. Seems to me you got lots of friends.”

“But only you will wait up for me when I need someone to.”

“That’s just because I’m a sucker, and my overactive sense of guilt would kill me if anything happened to you.”

That earned him another kiss, this time on the cheek. He’d learn later that, knowing full-well that this type of attention would thoroughly distract his friend, Trey had slipped the twenty into his shirt pocket as he leaned further over the seat.

“Ugh!” Pablo protested, waving Trey off of him. “Get out!”

Trey laughed again, but it was less boisterous. Pablo knew this transition. He’d seen it a million times. Trey’s stomach was letting him know, in no uncertain terms, that he needed to sleep soon, or he’d be sick. “Thank you, P. Love you,” he said, the new tone to his voice bringing a noticeable pall to the atmosphere inside the car.

Pablo exhaled in relief as Trey opened the passenger-side back door, letting the incessant but somehow comforting sounds of the rain in. The cool air hit Pablo at the same time as he noticed Trey hugging his sweater around his tall, lean frame.

He was striking – even the most conservative observer would have to admit that. At just under six feet (six-three including his heels and six-eight including his outrageous afro), his tall, slim body wore anything like a model’s would. His broad, straight shoulders slightly challenged his efforts at feminism on nights like tonight, it was true, and everything else about him screamed for attention, and not in a negative way. He was beautiful, whether he was dressed as a woman or a man. It was HIM that shone through his clothes and his makeup. His refusal to let anyone take him down. His sense of humour. His fearless displays of who he was at the core: kind, fair, sad. And lost, too, oh yes, that was on display at all times.

Trey leaned back into the front passenger-side window. “You working tomorrow night?” The exhaustion in his eyes was showing through the glamour all over his face.

Pablo nodded. “Take care of yourself, Trey.”

“Why?” the man called back, for he was already sashaying away, swinging his silver-sequined jacket over his shoulder and humming loudly, but tunelessly.

“Because – “ Pablo growled in frustration. “Argh, you know why!” He put the car in reverse. “Crazy, wild, bitch-boy,” he muttered, shaking his head. “He’s gonna get himself killed.”

Pablo’s intentions were innocent. After all, who wouldn’t be frustrated at having to witness the slow downfall of a good person? And all self-inflicted?

But he was wrong, too. Trey wasn’t going to let this life kill him, and in fact, he’d save many others before he was done with it. He just didn’t know it yet.

Monday, May 6, 2019

Free Book Promotion Ends Tonight

Good evening, beautiful readers!

Just a reminder that the free book promotion for That Summer ends at 11:59 est, tonight!

I'm so happy it's getting out there...there's something to be said about knowing someone I don't even know (and who didn't feel obligated in the least, haha) is reading my story.

:)

Thanks as always for your support! You can read a preview by clicking on the book cover: 





Saturday, May 4, 2019

ANNOUNCEMENT: Bird With A Broken Wing

Ahhh, there's nothing better on a Saturday morning than to wake up to a notification that your book is now available on Amazon!
I'm so excited that Bird With A Broken Wing is out there; it's one of my favorites! And it all started here, with my chapter a day challenge.
Thanks to everyone for your amazing support.
xoxoxoxoxo
https://www.amazon.ca/s?k=bird+with+a+broken+wing+theresa+dale&ref=nb_sb_noss

Wednesday, May 1, 2019

Book 3: Rose's Ghost

I'm happy to report that I've finally reached that point in the book where things are starting to come together before the climax.  I've been calling Book 3 of the Rose's Ghost series, "Viktor," but it's evolved, as a story tends to do, into something a little different than I originally intended.

I'm toying with, "Dmitry's Shadow," or "Lay Me Down Beside Them," but haven't settled on one, yet.

In any case, I'm about two-thirds through it, and feeling pretty excited about how it's turning out. This one intimidated me, but it's shaping up to be the best of the series.

Other than that, I've been submitting the updated version of Rose to publishers with my fingers crossed. Bird With a Broken Wing is on standby!

Hey, if you've read That Summer, don't forget to review it on Amazon. Apparently reviews affect sales in a rather spectacular way.

Thanks, dear readers.

Monday, April 22, 2019

The Plan

Good morning, dear readers.
I *think* I've come up with a plan for the books. :)

I'm going to publish Bird With a Broken Wing on Amazon, just like I did with That Summer. I'm thinking May 6, which gives That Summer several weeks on its own.

I'm still aiming to have the Rose's Ghost series traditionally published. I still have feedback coming in for Rose, which I'm extremely grateful for! Heather's Field could use a good once-over, but that one's pretty much ready. Last night, I wrote chapter outlines right 'til the end of Viktor, but I'm still writing chapter 10, so it'll be another week or two for that.

After that, I've got a new one in the works, featuring characters from several books. It's fun, and ties everything together, I think. It's called, "Contance and Enzo's Tea Time With Peyton." :) I'm only six chapters in, but this one's writing itself; just gotta get it from brain to screen.

In the meantime, I'm looking at submitting to magazines, thanks to a few friends who are pushing me forward.

I have to say, as much as I was warned that this wouldn't be easy, I continue to be amazed at the roller-coaster ride that is publishing. It's discouraging one day, then encouraging the next. The one thing that remains constant is the writing itself - it brings me so much happiness, guys. So, I have to remind myself to write, every day, even when I'm feeling defeated.

It makes everything better.


Wednesday, April 17, 2019

How I Write With Fibromyalgia

Fibromyalgia's tough.

While there are those who suffer the occasional flareup and then continue with their lives, relatively unscathed, there are others, like me, who suffer an intense 'baseline' of pain which never recedes. I've had a headache for four years, my left back has been in a Charlie horse-type spasm since shortly after Declan was born, and my left leg has been numb/tingly for two years. That's my every day. Oh, and I'm not so bright anymore. Even when I can think of the right thing to say, by the time it makes it's way to my mouth, it just doesn't sound like I intended it to. Brain fog. It makes me dumb, or at least sound it.

As such, my flareups are devastating. Like, can't get out of bed/off the couch. Need help walking.  Can't stop crying because I just feel like I'm gonna die. And my back...oh, Lordy, my back.
Have you ever had a toothache? One of the ones deep in the nerve, that needs a root canal? You know, when you fantasize about getting some pliers and wrenching the damn thing out of your head?
That's how I feel about that spazzed-out muscle group in my back. Like I just want it out, consequences be damned.

It's a desperate, helpless feeling of defeat, friends.

So, I've learned to plan each day so flareups are few and far between. I have a couple hours in the morning during which I can accomplish some things - throw a load of laundry in, make myself a tea - and these days, write. Then I eat lunch, and then I sleep for 3.5 hours. Every day. Just to survive until bedtime.

And those couple of 'productive' hours in the morning are not without their challenges. Looking at the screen always hurts my head, so I spend much of my writing time gazing blankly out the window. My brain talks to my fingers and the words manifest themselves, largely unsupervised by any conventional method (such as looking at the screen!). And thus, for me, writing is the easy part. And editing HURTS. I'm often surprised by the errors I've unknowingly made - forgotten paragraph separation, extra spaces (or not enough) - ugh. Editing takes far more time and energy for me.

And I don't just sit and write until I'm completely spent; I have to get up and walk around a bit every 20 minutes or so. I stretch, already stiff from sitting still. My shoulders and wrists ache from their workout. It's ridiculous.

In fact, when I started writing again the first few times after being diagnosed, I very nearly gave up right away. It was depressing. The effort it took. The pain it caused. So different from the old me. Do you know that I used to be called on at work to write for anyone and everyone that needed it? And I LOVED IT. Now, even having complete freedom to write whatever I want, I'm limited by my body. .

But I persevered, trying different things to make it work.

And, dear readers, it's been worth it.

The cost of devoting my good hours to writing pales in comparison to what it's done for me.
I'm like a hermit now - sticking close to home just in case that nauseating pain rears it's ugly head. Even outings to the mall or the drug store are timed and limited, unless Chad is with me; not having to drive and be alert helps a lot.

But now, here, reclining in my bed, I can escape into any world I decide to create. I can hop along railroad ties with Margot, or take long walks to get ice cream with Peyton. I can cry with Rose over her tragic loss, and laugh with Maggie and Max as they goof around. I can travel. I can paint. And the coolest part: at the end of it, I have a tangible product that I can share with others, and they can go on those adventures, too.

It's saved me. Writing has saved me, y'all.

And I'm so, so grateful.

Saturday, April 13, 2019

More Updates!

So, guess what?
Rose's Ghost has been overhauled! I'm happier with it now, and I think readers will be, too. I took out some unnecessary stuff, including some characters that didn't add to the story, and did some shaping to the whole thing from the start that makes everything flow better.
And besides the cover design, I've completed the editing on Bird With A Broken Wing.
So, I have to make some decisions about what to do next; do I self-publish BBW and Rose? Do I wait and give That Summer a chance to gain momentum? Do I send the updated Rose to all the agents I queried?
Lots of decisions to make about the books that already exist, and I've got lots more books rumbling around in my head, trying to get out.
Most of all, though, I'm having a blast!
Thank God for writing...
:)

Tuesday, April 9, 2019

Updates

Hi, wonderful readers!
I just want to give you updates on Bird With A Broken Wing and Rose's Ghost.
You may have noticed that I've taken down all chapters of Bird With A Broken Wing. I'm so excited to say that I've finished overhauling it and it's set to be published next week. Watch for the link!
And I'm thrilled to tell you that I've started doing the same for Rose's Ghost; it'll be a cleaner, more reader-friendly book once I've finished with it, but the premise and storyline will remain the same. I can't wait to share it with the world!
xo

Friday, April 5, 2019

Some Notes on Bird With a Broken Wing

Hello, lovelies!
I'm targeting Bird With a Broken Wing for publishing next, so have started to overhaul it. Yes, it was fun to post a chapter a day, but it often left things messy!
SO.
MANY.
WORDS.
So, you'll notice I've taken down all but the last several chapters as I go over it with a fine-toothed comb.
If you've been reading and you haven't finished, don't panic! Just comment or send me a message and I'll make sure you get the chapters you need. :)

Thursday, April 4, 2019

That Summer

I's so excited to tell you that I've published That Summer as an eBook and a paperback on Amazon.com!
The experience has been a really good one thus far; Amazon and Kindle provide really easy to use tools to format your manuscript, create your cover and lots more.
Both versions of the book have just become available today and I've done zero marketing so far, but Amazon and Kindle provide options in that area, too, so I'll be sure to keep you updated as the journey progresses.
Enjoy, and THANK YOU!
My Book on Amazon


Sunday, March 31, 2019

That Summer

Just finished Chapter 14. Six more to go, if I manage to stick to my outline.
Here's a glimpse:

She looked at the gap between the boards again. “Have you ever seen a ghost?”
Josh was standing in no time flat. He followed Peyton’s gaze, the words, “no, WHY?” shooting from his mouth, his voice cracking almost comically.
“You haven’t?” she asked, incredulous.
He shook his head. “Of course not, are you crazy?”
“A little.”
He looked back at her. It was strange to get the “you’re weird” look from someone who also had a spectrum diagnosis. Peyton’s stomach dropped.

Wednesday, March 27, 2019

That Summer

Just a quick update: I'm writing chapter 8 of new book. It's called That Summer and so far I'm liking it a lot. Another ghost story, this time with a twelve year-old protagonist who's just been through a battery of tests to try and get to the bottom of her behavioural problems. The spectrum diagnosis may be appropriate, but the fact that she's surrounded by ghosts surely has something to do with it, too. In any case, a Summer spent with her grandparents should provide her the break she needs before going back to both school and her team of doctors.
But it comes with new challenges, too. Her 'break' turns into an opportunity to learn about her gifts instead of merely coping with them...only she'll have to accept that her teachers are ghosts, and they want something in return.
I'm thinking of doing the self-publishing under a pseudonym. In my haste to start this challenge, I focused on the aspects of it that were practical: it'll help me learn about self-publishing in the most comprehensive way, and it's an excuse to write another book. :)
But what if it's not my best? What if, in my efforts to learn more, I sabotage myself with something mediocre?
...
It'll take more thought, for sure. Right now, though, I'll get back to it.
xo

Sunday, March 24, 2019

Self Challenge #2 - Self Publish

I think I've mentioned before that I'm not a patient person.
The process to be traditionally published is long and sometimes painful, so I'm always looking for ways to DO something to ease the process. This blog, the Rose's Ghost Facebook page, my one chapter a day challenge which resulted in Bird With a Broken Wing - these have all been my way of surviving the tough parts.
Now, I feel that familiar discouragement simmering, so it's time for another challenge!
I'm still writing Book 3 of the Rose's Ghost series, and I've been determined to get the series published traditionally. But what about self publishing? I'm curious. It's been suggested by friends, family and readers alike, and I'm not sure how I feel about it. But I can write pretty fast, and Amazon has some amazing resources to help - what if I wrote a book just to test it out?
What if I write a chapter a day, giving myself a month to get a new book written and prepare it for publishing on Amazon? What if I published it on my birthday? Is it doable?
My birthday is on April 26th. What a cool birthday present to myself that would be, huh?
If I'm honest, I'm thinking prepping it for publishing will be the most difficult part. I know they have some guidelines and anything published has to meet certain formatting standards, etc. Stuff I'm not so awesome at...
If I fail, it'll be that stuff that drags me down. So I'll give myself a bit of a break: if, by April 26th, I've finished a new book and have prepared it to the best of my ability for self publishing, and I'm waiting on approvals or other technical stuff from Amazon, I've succeeded.
I think that's fair?
Better get to it...

Thursday, March 21, 2019

There is a Loneliness Here

At 43 years of age and quickly approaching a birthday, I am shocked to be learning only now what a lonely art writing is.
I've always loved it, have always done it in one way or another, but it's only now, when I'm trying to make a serious go of it that I see how daunting it really is. I was warned, don't get me wrong - rejections, even the kind or helpful ones, are painful. And the effort to become traditionally published is at least as hard, probably harder - than anyone ever could have been prepared me for.
But it's the loneliness that surprises me. The roller-coaster of it. I do the hard work - I go up, up, progressing through the story, getting to know the characters and to love them, feeling elated as the plot unfolds in front of me, my excitement gaining in anticipation of the thrills to come.
Then I'm taken over by the approach to the climax, unable to plateau until I empty my body of it, the words spilling onto the screen as if made of the very life and blood that courses through me.
It is ME on the pages, bare and naked in my offerings.
Me there at the top of the roller-coaster, poised at the precipice, as high as I'll ever be.
Me delighting in the fall - that empty, floating feeling as the cars are pulled over the edge, just before they plummet toward the earth. The slight rise off the seat as your body works to keep up with the motion of the machine beneath you. The speed as the story crescendos, then slows, coasting to the ending, the puzzle of it finally completed.
The cheers and noise of the participants as they exit the coaster at the finale is the reaction I get from my readers, be it praise or criticism; I love it all.
And then it stops - the sun sets and the amusement park is shut down for the night.
The letdown after I finish something - it's always there. It comes in many forms, but the worst of it...the very worst...is that none of it MATTERS if nobody reads it.
I imagine that one day, when my books are in stores and in the hands of the dear people who will love them, the 'after' of writing will be satisfying. The feeling of getting something out there, of sharing something - some part of myself - that is good. Is maybe even the best of me. But for now, it just - all goes away. I finish, I celebrate, and then it's done. Nobody even knows it's there.
Yet.
To those who've been so kind to read anything I've written: THANK YOU. You carry me forward and encourage me to get back up after the fall. Or to just stay in the roller-coaster car and go around again until the right reader finds me.
xo